An Inquiry

It’s happening. I’m hitting send on an inquiry to view a chateau. This feels huge and easy and scary and silly and ridiculous all at the same time. I’ve been following this chateau since April 2021 - and it’s STILL available, which feels incredibly strange. We will be in the vicinity of it later this year and I feel like not asking to view it would be such a missed opportunity.

I want to be very clear - in no way am I expecting this to be “the chateau”. We haven’t even viewed ONE. This feels like the first step - a lantern that is lighting the way. Seeing this chateau (if we even get to) feels like it will be the confirmation if this is the life we actually see ourselves living. And maybe that is why I’m a little fearful, a little hesitant about inquiring. What if we view the chateau and its so far from anything I’ve imagined? If it is overwhelming? If it is underwhelming? If the idea that I have been consumed by for the last 6 years is simply…not what I’ve built it up to be?